I’m so mentally and emotionally drained. I’m sorry I started all of this. I should never have texted you. I can’t judge you for your fear of being with a girl. I understand if anything. It’s a scary thought to lose everything. Especially your family. To lose your rights because of the fucked up country/world we live in just cause you love someone of the same gender. I’m just tired, I want to go home and sleep. Maybe after some New Asia food with the T.T. treasurer I’ll be good though. Then I can get some work done that I’ve been putting off. Given then choice, I’d take cisgendered heterosexual privilege too. You’re lucky. Take it and run with it. No one should go through losing any of those things. Life’s hard enough as it is. I’m sorry I’ve been so hard on you for all of this. If I truly love you, I’ll let it go, and let things be. I have to thank S. for pointing it out to me in a way I could understand. If this is meant to be, and one day you come to terms with being bi and loving a girl, then maybe we’ll get our second chance, and maybe we’ll be happy. But I can’t hold my breath, and I can’t pressure you, it won’t do any good. No one should feel like their weak, no one should feel so scared and judged for being who they are and feeling what they feel. I’m sorry I did that to you. I do love you, and if I’m going to show that love for you I need to let you go.
(Source: joce2n)
